Heart Mind and Soul

MDJJJRRRKKK!!!!

Thu, 15 May 2008 15:10:40 GMT

A not so quick quickie pic I've made while waiting for scanning time...

I hate my life.....

I guess I'm not cut for writing documents, thesis or other scientific related papers...else I'm not so lagging that need special attention from my teacher....

How E-M-B-A-R-A-S-S-I-N-G!!!!!

But I'm not sad or angry or dissapointed or what....

....just....blank. And a bit embarrassed.....

LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER.......!!!!!!

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 15:57:23 GMT

Sometimes I REALLY HATE MY LIFE

As in REALLY REALLY REALLY....

I'm sick for almost a week, which is weird enough since it's just a normal flu with slight runny nose, no fever but I got dizzy for 4 days non-stop!
My head just stopped spinning around maybe 4 hours ago...

..and maybe it started again just now!!!

I couldn't focus on thesis and my teacher wants me to submit whatever I can tomorrow....last week actually....but at least I know she is kind enough not to press on me when I am sick. Nope, she is a caring teacher, lucky me.

BUT!!!

I only have, like, two months perhaps...to write all of the thesis!!! I don't think I'm able to, if I will get sick again some time in the future. Knowing me, probably I will...

And I have a bonus: the day after tomorrow I have mid-term test. Oh joy.

Whopeeee~~~

To top it all A.K.A. bonus number two:
I just got a news that my dad fell over his bike just now. My mom were rushing to the hospital just now, which one I don't know, she refused to tell me and even told me not to tell my bro or anyone else....

Of course even if I am cured from the never-ending headache now I cannot concentrate on my works!!!!! How can I????

LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER~~~YE-YEAH!!!!

Screw it....

At least I manage to write all of them above without add some cursings

Oh Christ, is this your punishment for accidentally burning Your picture at Easter Eve? Or because I couldn't come to Church yesterday?

And whoever read the last part....I AM NOT JOKING!!!!!

I am sinned!!!! At least I think so....

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 16:37:11 GMT

0.o

I AM SINNED!!!!

That's what I think but for me it's true *weeps*

See, today I was going to Church with my family. Easter eve, we were holding a candle each which obviously has something against me because the was was burning my hand TWICE!!!!

Not to menton I am sick right now, light fever or flu, but at the time I thought it was ok to go..........what a big mistake. I almost couldn't stand, too dizzy (Thomas, jangan ngtawain gw! iy gw tau gw mustinya ga dtg but still...!)

Back to the wax.

Well, since it burnt me twice, I finally placed it on the floor in front of me. It was almost dead anyway, the candle was Doc once but then it was Dopey. The shocking thing was the round picture of Christ around the candle was slowly burnt down. I was shock to see it I have to ask my mom what should I do. The fire was too big so we left it burnt into pieces.

Why sinned? Because the round picture has Christ picture on the left & some kind of poetry on the right. AND IT WAS CHRIST'S PICTURE THAT BURNT, NOT THE POETRY!!!
Why did the fire choose Christ over the poetry???? I am not into traditional beliefs but if there's anything related to this....whatever, I feel bad & hopefully that won't symbolize something bad!

Christ please forgive me.....do I have to go to Church confessional??

No need to read this but happy easter!!

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 18:20:31 GMT

*sniff*

Not feeling good.....

I think I caught a flu....fever....whatever...

I'm feeling dizzy now....

Oh no....my thesis??? I really want to cry >.<

Btw...happy easter, everyone......

Now where's the medicine....

For people who kind enough to read:

See? No need to read this....

Laptop, Tikus, Internet & MEME

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:44:00 GMT

I'm still watching *or hearing* FROGS!!

Btw, I swear my important things have some against me. They are demo-ing *please don't mind the language abuse* against me now: my mouse, my starone, my lappie even...!

My lovely tikus, the one I had protected with all my heart, mind and soul from Wenart gege's evil wacom now.....otona ni natta? Toshi totta??? Is it need to retire now????

My starone.....ok, I guess it's obvious it's an old timer now. The battery often *almost every time* went off without telling me first, when charging it's often dead too, charging time only 2 hours or so & I can only use it for 2 hours also...!!!! I need to buy a nutritious food A.K.A. batre baru...

My lappie....is quite slow, I guess. The battery problem was fixed, once again thanks to Citet * I wanna hug you but you don't like skinship so the plan was scrapped~*

That's all for now! Plus MEME!!!

Instructions:
01) Bold what is true about you.
02) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
03) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
04) Underline what is half true.
05) Tag five LJ friends

The List:
• I miss somebody right now.
• I don't watch much TV these days
• I own lots of books.
• I wear glasses or contact lenses.
• I love to play video games.
• I've tried marijuana.
• I've watched porn movies.
• I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
• I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
• I curse sometimes.
• I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
• I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
• I have broken someone's bones.
• I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
• I hate the rain.
• I'm paranoid at times.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
• I need/want money right now.
• I love sushi.
• I talk really, really fast.
• I have fresh breath in the morning.
• I have long hair.
• I have lost money in Las Vegas.
• I have at least one sibling.
• I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
• I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (which is completely unnecessary but it was a must -_-u)
• I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
• I like the way that I look.
• I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
• I am usually pessimistic.
• I have a lot of mood swings.
• I think prostitution should be legalized.
• I slept with a roommate.
• I have a hidden talent. >>> everyone has this!
• I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
• I have a lot of friends.
• I have pecked someone of the same sex. <<< cheeks, okay?
• I enjoy talking on the phone.
• I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
• I love to shop and/or window shop.
• I'm obsessed with my Livejournal.
• I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
• I'm a pretty good dancer.
• I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
• I have a cell phone.
• I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
• I've rejected someone before.
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
• I want to have children in the future.
• I have changed a diaper before.
• I have a lot to learn.
• I am shy around the opposite sex.
• I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
• I have at least 5 away messages saved.
• I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
• I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
• I own the "South Park" movie.
• I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
• I enjoy some country music.
• I would die for my best friend.
• I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
• I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
• Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
• I have dated a close friend's ex.
• I am happy at this moment.
• I’m obsessed with guys.
• Democrat.
• Conservative Republican.
• I am punk rockish.
• I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
• I study for tests most of the time.
• I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
• I can work on a car.
• I love my job.
• I am comfortable with who I am right now.
• I have more than just my ears pierced.
• I walk barefoot wherever I can.
• I have jumped off a bridge.
• I love sea turtles.
• I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
• I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
• I am proficient on a musical instrument.
• I hate office jobs.
• I went to college out of state.
• I am adopted.
• I am a pyro.
• I have thrown up from crying too much.
• I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
• I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
• I adore bright colors.
• I usually like covers better than originals.
• I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
• I can pick up things with my toes.
• I can't whistle.
• I have ridden/owned a horse.
• I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
• I talk in my sleep.
• I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
• I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
• I wear a toe ring.
• I have a tattoo.
• I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
• I am a caffeine junkie.
• I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
• If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
• I've cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
• I have been to over 15 conventions.
• I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
• I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. >>>> just for getting used to it!
• I'm an artist. I like to draw.
• I am ambidextrous.
• I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
• If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
• I have terrible teeth.
• I hate my toes.
• I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
• I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
• I have lived in either three different states or countries.
• I am extremely flexible.
• I love hugs more than kisses.
• I want to own my own business.
• I smoke.
• I spend way too much time on the computer.
• Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
• Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
• I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
• I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
• I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
• I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
• I have played strip poker with someone else before.
• I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
• I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
• I can't stand being alone.
• I have at least one obsession at any given time.
• I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
• I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
• I'm a judgmental asshole.
• I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
• I have traveled on more than one continent.
• I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
• I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
• I can speak more than one language.
• I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
• I would rather read than watch TV.
• I like reading fact more than fiction.
• I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
• I have no piercings.
• I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
• I HAVE BEEN SO UPSET OVER MY PHYSICAL GENDER THAT I CRIED.
• I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
• I've been married and am now divorced.
• There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
• I like most animals better than most people.
• I own a collection of retro games consoles.
• The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
• I have hit someone with a dead fish.
• I have written/read erotic stories.
• I am compulsively honest.
• I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
• I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
• I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
• I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
• I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
• I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
• I dislike milk.
• I obsessively wash my hands.
• I always carry that something significant around with me.
• Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
• I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped
• I often sing whenever I can and I'm good at it too.
• I have experienced some type of traumatic abuse in my lifetime (physical, emotional, sexual, verbal etc.)
• I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.
• I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
• I love Harry Potter.
• My parents are not together.
• I don't believe in love.
• I hate people who walk incredibly slow.
• I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
• Sometimes I don't shower before work.
• To me, procrastination is like a disease!
• I adore Japan: the music, the animation, the comics, the culture, and everything~!
• I am skilled in at least five sports.
I sometimes can't feel anything at all, emotionally I mean.! XD
• I love yaoi
~~My addition: I'm a bit racialist >>> evil, I know, but please understand because I was shaped up this way~~

Okay?? I hope I didn't write any mistake...

Next Tag...whoever want to do this, make yourself at home~

Widi, Ill do the same! Comment on this entry, and I'll:

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, song, color, photo, word etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.

Jya bai bai~~

FROGS!!!!

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 14:36:42 GMT

Oh my, I’m so….

Citet, thanks for the realone player~~ but apparently it has a bad side effect -_-u

I'm just watching Frogs over and over again since morning XD

Well, it's like FINALLY!!!!

The video has been there since like.....last year, November or December I think, but never watch it bcoz I didn't have the player....

I’m really in love with Amane & Kuro there…..and also jealous of their dancing & acting skills.

Come to think of it….may be that’s because I wished to be a dancer when I was a child?

Anyway.

I’m still watching it now (Widi…..gimana neh???)

九州空港の空極高級航空機.....

Last Weekend~~

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 13:12:02 GMT

I’ve told pratz as soon as I could stop laughing at the time~~

See those little boys in the photos? They are my nephews: the red one was Jason (about 6-7), Sean in green and Axel in white (both are 5). Jason is Sean’s brother and Axel is their cousin.

So what are they doing in the photos?

They are playing gameboy!!!!

Ok, I know people probably think I’m making a big deal of it BUT they are little boys & already playing gameboy at this young age??

They seemed quite preoccupied but they were fighting to play the poor abused gameboy. Yes, they were abusing it! They’ve been playing since morning & when I took the pic it was about 1 PM and it’s batteries almost dead.

The day before, we were invited for a night at Horizon Hotel (Ancol) by my aunt’s family. My aunt is the trio’s grandma. When we were talking at Yu aunt’s room there were me, my mom & brother, Yu aunt, Ira jiejie (Jason & Sean’s mom) and Didit gege (Axel’s dad----Indonesian version: koko Didit & cici Ira but whatever~) plus my baby niece, Joselle (Jason’s little sister). All of a sudden…..ENG ING ENG!!!!!!! Those trio barged in VERY loud *I mean it!! VERY!!* and immediately Jason & Sean were begging Didit gege to buy them gameboys!

“A’uk….I want the same gameboy like Axel’s!”
“A’uk, I want one too! I want the red colour! Buy me one!”

See? Our younger generations are VERY corrupted, nah? And no magic words at all, they were just begging & begging…..but Jason, though the oldest, is the quick-temper-man here. When he found out he has to wait at least a week for the gameboy, he just pouted & snuggled to his grandma, mumbling about ‘I wanna play right now’.

Not that the older generations aren’t corrupted. One of the topics my aunt & her children talked about before the troublemaker trio came was about which console they should buy for them. They went through a list of xbox, PS3, Nintendo DS, gameboy…..they didn’t mention WII though.

That’s what happened when your family is VERY rich but I hope I won’t be that way when I have children. Anyway, Didit gege is a gamer since we were little….if I remember correctly, our sega was his too, he just gave it to us when he already bored (OMG….). No wonder his son is an expert at games.

That’s about my nephews. There was another funny thing. Fani, my cousin, was there before us. The first morning, she was having breakfast with my grandpa at the restaurant, when she encountered Skid Row members. The man was having trouble ordering omelets just because the egg corner’s chef doesn’t understand english (should we complain to the hotel, it is an international hotel!) so she helped him ordered. She didn’t even realize the man was famous & only noticed when she saw the man & his friends were eating on the next table with a lot of people came asking for photos.

English version:
“Grandpa…I helped that guy ordered omelets. I think he’s an artist”
“Really? Why don’t you take a picture with them?”
“What? No I won’t! It’s embarrassing…”

Indonesian version:
“Opa, bule yg di meja sebelah kayanya artis deh…tadi ‘Ani nolongin dia mesen omelet…”
“Masa sih? Fani foto dong ama mereka…”
“Hah, ga mau ah! Malu-maluin, kenal juga nggak…”

*Yes, people…..spupuku yg aneh bin ajaib (slalu aja dapet pengalaman ala Radith si kambing) berpikir bahwa the Skid Row cuma ordinary bule botak bertato* <<<<<<< (pliz dong….ktawa ngakak pas denger nih!!!!)

But people know good men will receive good treatments. The baldie Skid Row waved at her, said “Ok, thanks & bye!” when he went out. My cousin was almost laughing at the situation. Other people asked them for photos & autographs but she received an “Ok, thanks & bye!”
(“orang laen minta foto ama mereka tapi ‘Ani didadahin n pake ‘ok, thanks, bye!’ lagi!!”)

She probably didn’t care at first but I think she was quite proud at herself later for helping poor baldie in need XDD

When we were eating at Jimbaran, Balinese restaurant, later that night, we found out (or heard) another band had a performance not far from the restaurant. We were jokingly said Fani and I should accompany my grandpa at breakfast, just in case there’ll be another band member having trouble with omelets (kali aja ada bule mau omelet lagi gitu…)

Not a chance though, because we were in a hurry at breakfast. I forgot to mention because of those things above, we actually came there to pay respect to our late family members. My grandma, Yang grandpa and the others were cremated and the remnants were thrown to the sea at Ancol.

ONE last thing:
I almost got a heart attack while writing this journal.....because my laptop's battery suddenly went dead & when I plugged it to electricity....it hanged. Error. Whatever. I Haven't saved what I wrote yet at the time!!!!!! Glad I have the recovery data *svhvsdasry!!!!*

AHAHAHA!!

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 13:40:49 GMT

AHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I AM SSSSOOOO OOOLLLLDDDDD!!!!

Actually may be all of us? As in my classmates……Have a talk about our pasts definitely a sign of YOU’RE GETTING OLD, GIRLS!!!

1 year….no, half a year……oh no, we don’t have much time left before we are graduated *weeping in the corner* noooooo……..

Sometimes I wish we don’t have to graduate. Sometimes I wish we don’t have to leave Japanese classes so that we won’t leave our stupidity, dorkiness (is that even a word?) and whatever we’ve been through last year *sobs sobs*
What a nice memory……be it the good ones or bad ones…..

Btw, it seems every time we gather around, it’ll filled with what are you gonna do after you graduated, marriage OR our past, as I said above XD we all really missed those times, aren’t we?

Widi, Santi, Uzi…..thanks soooo much for today, I really had a good laugh—though didn’t make my cheeks hurt as usually happen~

Oooh….I suddenly have some good names for my denshi jisho ♥

How about Erai-chan? Doko demo kanji-chan? DenJi-chan?

Okay whatever, but not Rurus like Anggi had suggested, no thanks~

Well, there’s a VERY thin line between aku, kau dan Mak Erot *LHO????*

Nyahahaha!!! There’s a VERY thin line between stupid and idiot indeed…..and I’ll add another thin line for DORK!!!

*off laughing in the bed*

Purple line, let me settle my world....♫

YAY!!! MY FRIENDS!!

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 13:31:07 GMT

WHEEEEEE~~~~

I’m so happy today!! It’s been a long time *for me* since the last I met some of my friends and now they were here in campus!!!

Santi, you finally back to us again! I’m so sorry about your sister, especially about your situation now, now tht you’ve told me about it. You could’ve take your time at your hometown, your brothers missed you terribly……yet you have to go back here to deliver the reports for JoSei. It could wait & I believe he’s kind enough to let you rest for awhile but I guess it’s too late huh?
And really, thanks so much! I hope the denshi jisho didn’t give you too much of extra baggage. I love you, dear friend! Let’s have fun tomorrow! Oh…..I have to e-mail Mayumi too….omiyage wa kawaii ne, arigatou!!!

Ufie…..ubie…..ubi jalar……..jagaimo…….otanjoubi omedetou gozaimasu! Happy birthday! Glad you came to campus today, I haven’t met you since New Year’s holiday over. Though you could’ve tell me you were there sooner would be better……at least I didn’t have to SMS you, u-know >.<
Aaaaaaaaaaannnndddd………^________^ dear Himmi’s fiancée *hahahahah* thanks for updating us about…….your fiancée XDD

Elysia, happy belated birthday! I’m so sorry I forgot T____T how’s your life now since you graduated? How’s Pandu? Are you still there in Kukel or have you move to your in laws’ house? Take care of the baby and tell me if she’s born ok? *your baby is a she rite?*
Why am I questioning her here? Bcoz she didn’t answer my SMS earlier….

Now…….if I could figure out how the denshi jisho works…..

P.S. Citet, plizz bantuin gw koreksi my oh so crappy english dunk @.@

Chinese + Catholic = Just read below

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 12:26:57 GMT

Our culture’s getting all the more interesting lately XDDD When I went to Church this morning, just walking by the Church’s side I already heard some strange tunes…..something like Chinese traditional music with not-so-chinese lyrics.

When I entered the Church….0.o I almost forgot we are still in lunar new year weeks since we live our daily life as usual, until the Church itself remind me. Inside the Church are red lantern hanged everywhere, with the word 福written on them. Some red decorated papers were hanging on the walls. The altar was draped with the color of red, which usually for remembering the martyrs now used as ‘happiness’ LOL~ and in front of the altar were two baskets of oranges (I forgot what it named, the one from small trees like bonsai?) and two large fake gold ingots filled with hongbaos.

Some volunteered people plus the choirs were wearing red clothes, some even used qipao…..fake one, of course -_-u and the songs, as I said, were combination of Chinese and Catholic (that was what the Pastor said XD). The collected donation was placed in hongbaos too and then placed inside fake gold ingots again.

Not that I surprised, because last year it was like this too. Once again, they chose a Chinese-ancestry Pastor who at least could pronounce xin nian kuai le and zhaoshang hao correctly (hahaha!!!) plus additional bonus of he was a Pastor once in Taiwan. Some bad points, from my POV, were the over-usage of mandarin here. Some prayers were using mandarin, which I don’t understand and I believe a lot people too, and that’s not a good thing since not all the Catholic/Christian here are Chinese. Well, at least they gave some variations =) interesting though I think not quite necessary (?) If God understand, so be it then (?????)

Later, the Pastor gave some hongbaos and oranges to the community. I didn’t take it though….my bro and dad did. Duh, I’m too old to go to the front just to accept the hongbaos. I’m satisfied with the blessings, thank you God~~

Xin Nian Kuai Le!!!!!

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 08:03:36 GMT

Xin nian kuai le! It’s Lunar New Year! YAY!!!!

……….though I’m not welcoming the rats (curut, tikus got & sodara2nya….) in my house >=(
let’s just forget the 3rd day supposed to be the rat’s marriage celebration & we must respect them *I didn’t dare to say I hate them since this is the year of the rat!!!*

Hmmm, I dunno why but although I celebrate it every year, I found that this year’s the happiest moment I ever felt. I just got all cheery the moment my cousin came (she’s living across my house) and before the guests arrived, we even chatted via skype with my grandma’s youngest bro who is living in Japan. He even complained about why it is a holiday in Indonesia but not in Japan XDXD as much as perhaps know the reason, I won’t tell anyone!!!

Btw, after annoying my grandma’s youngest bro via skype & my cousin’s ex via MSN *oh la la, double chat!!! I tend to do this lately^^^* mom’s called us to go down & greet my uncles-aunties. The oddest event of the day is….one of my aunt’s big faily came late, after lunch. Now that was rare. As in VERY rare. VERY VERY rare.

Though that was rare, I had to enjoy the silence as much as I can. See, I did write my aunt’s big family. She has three children, the two eldest are married. The 1st daughter has two boys & a baby girl. My aunt’s son also has a boy & a baby girl.

And it’s a common knowledge for three boys around the same age to act….very….loud….right? That’s what happened, when they came, no longer peace & quiet in my house T-T but then again, it’s new year, we have to be as loud as possible to shoo away the evil spirits and be merry (supposed to be with firecrackers, not children being children XDXD)
One of my nephews, Sean, keep playing with my grandpa’s dumbell, preaching “one, two, one, two….” While passing by the TV where his aunties (me & my cousin…we’re so old!!!) were watching our elder cousin’s wedding party’s video. Way to go, Sean! You surely be a good athlete or at least a coach when you grown up!! Hahahah!!

Funny how children could be very loud while shy at the elders. Another nephew, Axel, was very shy to his great grandpa and only said “xin nian kuai lei” in a small voice and off to hide behind his grandma ^______^ how cute~ but then all enthusiastic when received hongbao LMAO!!! My niece Anabelle is the cutest, she’s 2 years old now, but she was all crying for mommy while eating….I couldn’t say anything, nah? They are children after all~

Anyway, being a South-East Asian Chinese & a Catholic as I am & most of my family members (the only Confucian follower is my grandpa and his bros/sis/cousins), we only celebrate the 1st day at 7th February and the last day, the Yuan Xiao (if I’m not mistaken) or known as Cap Go Meh here. I can still hear some firecrackers sound outside though……if it’s not raining, that is. I somewhat don’t mind the rain….I dunno. According to Chinese customs, rain at lunar new year a.k.a. early spring supposed to bring fortunes and good lucks. But now, it brings some unfortunate events here and there are problems of snowstorm in China. I guess it only applied to our ancestors in mainland of China?

Since I’m not married yet, I still receive hongbao but strangely they’re only fuel up my spirits to finish my undergraduate thesis ASAP & TBIC.

P.S. Widiiiiii!!!! Buruan balik!! Gw mau curhat!!! Cia udah ga kos, ga ada lg yg bisa gw ajak bcanda2 sinting slaen lw -_-u

P.S.2 Mila-chan, where are you? I never see you on MSN again lately??

Poetry 1: Untitled

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 16:31:09 GMT

I feel like a bird
my mind is free
my heart is free
not yet
not like a bird
though
the pain is healing

At least today
the least this day
least today I can feel
it's loosened
the chain of my heart

Not yet
no freedom
though
I can smell a tree
the warmth of the sun
shining through a small crack
shining through a half-opened door

2nd.....

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 14:11:01 GMT

.........

What to write.....

Ok, I went to campus this noon..

***INTERMEZZO***

itwassupposedtobemorningbutdamntheroadhastobeperfectlyfullandabitrainingenoughtomademywaytotrainsationmuchmoreharderandthetrainitselfcameverylatethefirstonewasanexpressthatsupposedtostopyetdidnotdosoandthesecondonewasemptyyetdidnotstopagainarghsodamnfrustratingandthatwaswhyiwaslate*

***INTERMEZZOENDSHERE***

.....right. Anyone can read that?

Hmmmh....my friend Ufie suddenly found out she'd translated the wrong parts of our SPJ homework, she'd translated Putie's part. Soooo......in an ASAP time, the three of us were translating the right parts. It was a homework-supposed-to-be-exam *that's my language*, I don't know what gonna happen to her if Sensei found out....

The worst is she'll get zero? Is that even possible?

Nah......can't be. Sensei is very nice & she had done lots of efforts to in the past........I mean, in class.

Ok, skip.

Ufie helped me searching a nice place for Ikuko, a Japanese exchange student I'd mentioned in my 1st journal.

And I almost stressed. Duh, my 1st target was almost a total no-no..........

In the end, perhaps we will use Ufie's ex-boarding room. We have another classmate in the same place so it will help a lot (and I'm a bit.......wary.....to ask some help from my juniors.....)
For the time being, I guess we'll let it that way. The rest is up to Ikuko herself.........we can help her search another one if she doesn't like it.

By the time I got home, my feet aching coz standing so long in the train. I missed my niece's 1st birthday party too.....so sorry, Lexa.......auntie was very bad to you.......

First Entry, Confused Entry

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 17:26:30 GMT

Right......hey, this is my first entry!!!

And I'll begin with a confusing one. For me, that is....

At 3rd january, a friend of mine will came from Japan. She is an exchange student from TUFFS/GaiDai at Tokyo. Well, of course I'm happy.....she's a friend anyway.

The problem is, she asked me & my friend to help her find a nice boarding house for her (this one still okay), pick her up at 7 PM in airport (this one a problem) and show her a place to sleep before she resides in her new boarding house (this is the BIGGEST problem).

Why i wrote them as problems?

Because a friend of mine, kisame_widi is probably off with her parents for holiday. I'm actually feeling bad since it supposed to be me and another classmate of mine who take care of our Japanese friend but we really need her help. Her house is just perfect for a moment of sleepover since it's not far from our campus and she already agreed to help. So the main problem is.....kisame_widi can help us or not?

So sad.....I feel like I'm just using her while she's the best friend of my life...